I can feel things will be getting better. It comes in small steps i guess. And i’m so looking forward to it. But it’s hard to be patient when you just wanna dive right into the good life. And to explain to others that it just takes a little more time. I feel like keep letting myself and others down time after time. I wanna be reliabe en stable again. I miss the ‘old new’ me, but i’m getting there

Okay, yesterday i felt like an emotional wreck and today things are suprisingly better. Life is not perfect, i’m not perfect either and it never will be. I have to stop waiting for magical days and wasting my time, because when i can take my mind of things and stop worrying, there are plenty of beautiful fun things in life! So maybe not everythings works out like i planned it in my head, days will still be much more fun when i actually do things and stop worrying in stead of sitting alone in my room feeling anxious about my insecurities. 

Woaw, what a complete turn around. A large part of my frustrations have been cried out yesterday appearantly, because i’m a little more hopeful than i was before. Time will make everything better. What doesn’t mean that i gotta stop living in the present and just wait around for the future!