Actually it kinda sucks that i’m not sure if you were even worth it. Because you will be your unchanged self after this and there probably won’t even be the slightest agreement between the two of us about the need to cherish the sweet memories. And since i didn’t get the change to do all the stuff i thought a relationship was about, it has been such a waste of my time, energy and feelings. So much stress it has caused, it sucks to realize i could have been so much further right now when i would have been on my own all the time. I could have given all my love to myself instead and rediscovering myself wouldn’t have been necessary then.
What if to the max. I hoped it cared less about i by now. Don’t even look forward to starting my second college year. And my face is messing up big time, so it seems like everything is against me. It would be nice to feel unbeatable when i return to college, but it doesn’t look like that’s going to happen.
Yep, i’m a star in letting go of things..